Despondent

I am feeling a might depressed tonight. Seems like there is so much that needs to be DONE but none of it is anything I can DO.

Jeff's job interview went okay he thought but not well enough he felt that he would be offered the job. He suspected he'd know in the next couple weeks.

Nothing has happened with our OH house selling. We had a great open house with lots of positive feedback on Sunday, which has now amounted to a big whopping nada.

Our OK house seems to be at a bit of a slow down. This is a mixed blessing. While I'd love to get moved in and have my own space, in reality until the OH house sells we cannot qualify for the loan. Big Problem. So if the slow down on the OK house allows us long enough for the OH house to sell, this could be a plus actually.

We do have one decision we have made. I called the school district we were trying to transfer Abi into this past Monday. They informed me they would not decide to admit or decline to admit her until the first day of class. This is not okay. First she'd miss the first day of class. While not ideal this is not actually my big issue. The big issue is there is only one day care that buses into this school. To reserve her spot now would cost $75, and if she is not admitted we'd lose $75. To wait and not reserve her spot means the spot might not still be available if she is admitted. I simply can't risk any of this. So, I decided to stop fighting the issue and send her to the school she is supposed to go to. If we decide to next year we can transfer her in and know sooner because we'd apply sooner. On the upside the day care we were able to get the kids into now will cost us $30 less a week. That is a savings of $120+ a month! Obviously a good thing. :)

So a bit of sunshine in an otherwise gloomy outlook I'd say. At this point I feel helpless. There are two HUGE things that need to happen (OH house to sell and Jeff to get a job... just in case you missed that above) and I can to NOTHING to assist in any of it.

Helplessness is such a hard feeling. When you feel this way you feel like giving up and certainly the glass is half-empty in my life right now. So, I am going to try this again...

My Wish List
1) OH house sells and SOON!!!
2) Jeff gets a job he'll enjoy (and pays decently)
3) the OK house is NOT finished before the OH house is sold

and the next one is new...

4) that I keep my sanity in this whole process

God, I need your help when I am helpless. You know what you have planned for us. You have brought us here and provided me with a good job. You have provided an amazing opportunity for us with this house and I believe that you know better than I do what we need. You know we need our OH house to sell. Please send the right person to our home to make us a good offer and allow us to move on. You know Jeff has struggled with his job situation ever since we left OK. Please guide him to the job you'd have him take. Allow things to fall into place so that he'd find fulfillment in the job you have for him. I know your plans are best and your timing is perfect. Give me optimism when I am down and encouragement when I feel like giving up. I love you God. Amen